I wasn't sure when or if we were going to talk about this book for our online book club, but I wanted to talk about this book for my grateful Sunday post. It seems everyday that I read this book I was filled with love and had a charge to be a better mom. I empathized with the author as she was writing of her struggles and resistance she received as she chose to leave her job to be a mother. I remember in graduate school spending an entire semester accumulating and putting together a curriculum vitae to hand out to our "employers" the minute we graduated. I knew I wouldn't use it. I almost felt shamed by others as we headed closer to graduation (from one of the most feminist colleges in the South) as everyone was sharing their future career plans they had lined up after graduation and me (8-9 months prego with my 3rd) trying to say as proudly as I could that I planned to use my education to "just" be a mom. I felt such resistance like I was going to "waste" all I had worked for. When I felt completely the opposite way. I felt I had learned so much to take to my own family and to the families within my own church and community. I am grateful for those experiences.
That is why I loved "I am a Mother" so much. Each road that leads each of us to motherhood is such a unique one. But when we all get there the experiences that we have had mold us into the mothers we are. I am grateful to be a mother with all the extreme highs and extreme lows that come with it. Some days I feel like I am actually doing a good job as a mom, and other days are filled with tears, doubt and guilt. One thing is for sure we just have to trust in the Lord that where our abilities lack he will make up the difference as He has promised.
I knew I wanted to write today's post about motherhood when yesterday Austin and Chase had made a huge fort with every cushion we own. They were pretending that is was a swimming pool and cannon balling from the back of the couch. I couldn't help but smile. Blake was giggling in the background as his two older brothers made him laugh. Everyone was just happy....just being together and with just each other. Those are hopefully the moments we remember.
